Speaking of: Wanting to Be Nowhere Else

Sometimes I have moments where, in an avalanche of internal debate, I start questioning what I'm doing with my life, why I'm living where I'm living, why I'm working the job I'm working...

Other times I have moments where I feel out of place, like I was dropped from the clouds into a new life and left to freak out when I realize I'm not in Kansas anymore.

And when these moments happen, I breathe for a second. And I think to myself, "If I could be doing anything in the world right now — living anywhere and working in any field — what would I be doing?" And then I realize I'd be living where I currently am, working in the field I currently am, living a practically identical life. I'd rather be nowhere else in the world.

And that's when my brain goes, "Ahhh yes I forgot you like your life. Now I remember." And the ordeal is over.